I feel like Kathy Bates' character in Fried Green Tomatoes.
In the past 24 hours, I've destroyed--as in utterly--three large gardens. I've been ruthless, savage, and unbelievably heartless. Everything in those spaces is gone or going (there are a couple of rock piles for Bill to move, and a few things I'm moving somewhere else). And there's more coming, although the jury is still out on a couple of the areas. I'm sorriest about the rosemarys, most of which were 7-8 years old and five-six feet in diameter. But they were very dead, drowned where they grew. Several of the roses have to go, as well, I'm afraid. It was a disastrous summer.
But I've already downloaded the wildseedfarms.com catalog and made a list of the wildflower seeds I want to order for what will be a prairie meadow. Bluebonnets, of course. And also poppies and blue flax and Drummond phlox and paintbrush and winecups. Gaillardia, horsemint, coreopsis, standing cypress, and primrose we already have in abundance--they'll seed naturally, courtesy of the birds and the wind. Bill is happy that his mowing job has been made easier, and while I'm sad, I also feel lighter. It's time for a change here. And as my buddy Paula says, it'll be a heckuva lot less work. Thanks to all of you who have written to share your own stories of gardens lost and remind me that death and dying and loss are all part of the gardener's experience. That helps.
Fired with the enthusiasm of clean-up but forced by the heat to take a break, I'm getting to work on my office, which I have to clean up before I start serious work on Wormwood. I've brought out my stack of Shaker research materials, some plot notes I made a couple of weeks ago, and I'm getting excited about beginning the book--always my favorite time. But I somehow can never begin until all the stuff connected with the other projects is put away. So today, I'm reshelving books, tossing papers and junk mail, and (gasp!) actually sweeping the floor.
On the writing front, one very nice bit of good news this week: we negotiated the contracts for Books 6, 7, and 8 in the Cottage Tales series. I didn't actually think Berkley would kill the series in the middle (or nearly), but I've learned not to count my chicks until they're hatched and peeping. Oh, and one other nice thing: I mailed the manuscript of the memoir to UT Press. So that's off my desk, at least for a while. There's more work to be done on it, but the hardest part is over.
Tawanda.
Reading note. You will do foolish things, but do them with enthusiasm.--Collette